Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Struggling

The last week or so has been really rough. Olivia has started getting really clingy, to the point that she wants me to snuggle or hold her for long periods of time. And she doesn't just sit still, something is wiggling. Usually moving her feet everywhere. Which really gets annoying because she knocks stuff over that I move to keep from getting knocked over. As I am typing this in, she is laying on the floor, perpendicular to me, with her feet on my lap, constantly moving. And her feet keep hitting my arm. Just that alone is enough to drive me crazy. Last week I realized that it had been almost a month (now its been over a month) since Rich last called me. Now, that's not to say that he hasn't communicated at all, just that he hasn't called. We have done VTC, and email/texted. To anyone who has had a spouse on deployment knows what I'm talking about. There is something about that unexpected phone call. I have vented to a handful of people because I'm just getting so frustrated with him. The 6th was our 7th anniversary, and a couple days in advance I'd sent him a message stating that I was hoping he'd call on the anniversary and that VTC isn't enough talk time. He didn't call, he sent a message saying that he couldn't call, but wanted to. He also had arranged to have something delivered to me. It was a gardenia bush (or is it considered a plant?). So, I'll have it for a long time if I can manage to keep it alive.
This may sound stupid, but I haven't even gotten a Thank You for the packages I sent him. All i've gotten from him about them was "Got the package". Which makes me feel under appreciated. I put time, and effort into those. Do I mention it, or just let it be? Not only that, it does take money to put those together and to send them.
I talked to his dad about this, he is one of those that I tell these things to. He helps me feel better by telling me he sees that Rich adores and loves me and Olivia. It helps, to an extent.
All I want is a damn phone call from my husband! Is that too much to ask?!

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